Monday, March 30, 2009

two days until the end

two days of class left, and i'm having a hard time accepting that i'm on the brink of summer, much less...on the brink of the rest of my life. this is the end of my undergrad and i can barely get excited. i keep forgetting. not surprisingly, the feeling is bittersweet.

things i will miss:
- the social interaction of going to school
- the 'identity' of being a 'student', and the whole subculture that goes with it
- learning new things in a classroom setting
- being encouraged to research, study and read about things i probably would never take the initiative to on my own

things i'm excited about:
- making and saving money, instead of spending it
- free time is just that...not spent doing homework, or stressing about deadlines
- no more deadlines!
- more opportunity to pursue my own interests and hobbies
- that sense of accomplishment. 22 with an honours degree.

of course, this will all change when i go to grad school. i will be a student again. i will be in even more debt and be struggling to reach even more persistent deadlines. but it's different, i think. it's more mature. it's more..."this is real life". and i'm excited for that...when the time comes.

in the meantime, i have a lot of decisions to make, a lot of self-discovery to accomplish, and hell...a lot of RELAXING to do. i need peace of mind. my guts will tell me what to do, where i need to be and when i should do it.

1 comment:

nocturnAL said...

Even though I didn't get an honours degree, I know how good it feels to be finished a school career. It's soooo nice to finally get away from those responsibilities and to just relax during, as you said it, your free time that was once used to complete homework.