it was never a contest

well, it's been a while.

the longer i go without posting, the harder it is for me to get back in the game.
the problem is really that i have too much to say! it's sort of like how kevin used to describe being on hallucinogenic drugs..."THIS much to say, this little space". i miss kevin. i may have completely neglected this altogether and abandoned blogger for tumblr if it weren't for some positive feedback i received yesterday. it reminded me that i still need this. at least for now anyway. tumblr is great, but with 'like' and 'reblog' features, it is easy to push aside original ideas and thoughts. there's little therapy in it.

so, rest assured dear readers, i'm still here. if you jumped on board because of that contest, you're invited and encouraged to keep reading and to offer feedback.

i feel compelled to offer you something now. but my head and my heart just aren't in it at the moment. i'm feeling compressed and stretched thin all at the same time. you might know the feeling...

anyway, when i've organized myself a little better, i'd like to tell you about some things. i think all in all, life continues to be quite interesting :).