it was never a contest

well, it's been a while.

the longer i go without posting, the harder it is for me to get back in the game.
the problem is really that i have too much to say! it's sort of like how kevin used to describe being on hallucinogenic drugs..."THIS much to say, this little space". i miss kevin. i may have completely neglected this altogether and abandoned blogger for tumblr if it weren't for some positive feedback i received yesterday. it reminded me that i still need this. at least for now anyway. tumblr is great, but with 'like' and 'reblog' features, it is easy to push aside original ideas and thoughts. there's little therapy in it.

so, rest assured dear readers, i'm still here. if you jumped on board because of that contest, you're invited and encouraged to keep reading and to offer feedback.

i feel compelled to offer you something now. but my head and my heart just aren't in it at the moment. i'm feeling compressed and stretched thin all at the same time. you might know the feeling...

anyway, when i've organized myself a little better, i'd like to tell you about some things. i think all in all, life continues to be quite interesting :).

grad weekend

throughout most of university i've said that i didn't care much for the graduation ceremony. i was here for my ticket and the good times, and i've always said that the ceremony was too long, hot and boring...intended more for parents really. of course, i always planned on attending my own graduation...for my own family of course, but it was never something i really looked forward to. until now. today, i've decided that i'm quite looking forward to this day [which just so happens to be friday]. i mean, i still expect the ceremony to be long, hot and boring, but i don't hold the same contempt that i held for...say, my high school graduation.

i'm quite proud of my accomplishments this far and i'm excited to reward myself with a special day. i'm excited to spend a little time with my family on MY turf for once. i'm excited to watch my friends graduate and to rejoice in their accomplishments. i'm excited to smile lots and take lots of photos. i'm excited to receive lots of hugs and well wishes. i DESERVE this praise! i've worked hard for this. and of course, when it is all said and done, i'm excited to party! nathan and i are having guests over for pre-drinks and bbq, before hitting up the wall for cheap rye and bud light lime.

saturday is third fuck chicks, we just wanna dance porch party which is SURE to be a good, silly time filled with lots of dancing and hopefully some faces i haven't seen much of in the past while. sunday nathan and i are hoping to roadtrip-it to sudbury so that i can finally meet his dad, and get in touch with that part of his life.

all in all, i'm really looking forward to this weekend! :)

still stylish

dear people of north bay,

if you're into vintage/second hand and ever find yourself stranded at the bus station downtown for an extended period of time, i encourage you to venture into still stylish across the street. it's a VERY small thrift store and is extremely hit or miss but the owner is cute and it is so, SO cheap that it is always worth checking out. especially if you're stuck waiting across the street anyway. i have been visiting this place pretty regularly for about six months now, and finally made my first purchases today. i got a cute top for 60 cents and an amazingly cute skirt for 80 cents. a top and a skirt for a $1.40...you just can't go wrong!


on a different note, i believe little amadeus has passed on :(. he just couldn't hack life without a shell it seems *sigh*. funeral arrangements are currently being made.

the naked crab

amadeus is NAKED and gerald [the asshole] has stolen his shell! leave it to gerald to pick on his friend while he is MOLTING! i've put little amadeus into makeshift isolation, and while he's surprisingly still alive...he's definitely not looking too hot. i hope he will like one of the new shells i'm offering him and move in. i don't care how scary he looks when he's not wearing a shell...i don't want my little crab baby to die :(.

moltastic!

i woke up this morning to find parts of crab limbs in my tank. it appears that i'm experiencing my first crab molt! poor little amadeus looks very...fragile at the moment. i was scared that he was dead [i'm still a little scared that he will die], but apparently that is common. the exoskeleton pieces that i found were hollow so i think everything is happening according to plan. it's going to be VERY hard not to disturb him for the next few weeks! a lot of crab owners isolate their crabs, but i don't have the resources for another tank, and i don't know if i use the plastic pop bottle technique that i will have enough room to offer him food and water. my other crabs aren't overly big or confrontational, so i think i will just try and let him be and let nature take his course. wish him luck!

live long and prosper

i really wish that itunes would stop sending me error messages, refuse to update my ipod and then freeze up my computer. i downloaded the ani difranco discography today [i'm not really sure how i hadn't done this sooner because i do love her so, so much] and i want to be able to listen to ani on the go! thankfully i have a very large and diverse pile of music on my ipod right now, so i can surely get by without updating it...but i shouldn't have to. oh, the injustice.

i just finished e-mailing out a few resumes [garage, curbside fries and the sears portrait studio], and have a few places i'd like to go visit in person, including a florist shop downtown. HUGE props to this website. if anyone is looking for work, i recommend checking it out!

now i'm about to go to the movies and watch star trek again. i'm not usually a see-it-twice person, but sometimes exceptions just have to be made. on a similar note, if anyone would like to give me the money so that i can go to vegas for the star trek convention at the beginning of august, that would be sweet.

small sacrifices

it's sort of depressing to think that my first job after earning an honours degree is likely to be fast food. even with my best efforts, my money is disappearing rapidly. if i want to have ANY fun this summer, i'm going to have to figure something out.

i found out yesterday that blink 182's reunion tour also features weezer and taking back sunday. they play on august 23rd at the molson amphitheater in toronto. naturally i would really love to go and it just so happens i was looking at taking a trip to TO this summer. what would be better than going at the end of the summer and hitting up this show?! of course, concert or no concert...this trip is going to cost money that i simply do not have.

i need to make some sacrifices for the greater good.